M.I.M.F.A.

Just so everyone know, I have limited access to the internet right now. I recently moved in with my grandmother to help her out some while she is going through some tough times and everything that I use to keep everyone informed hasn’t quite gotten up to speed yet….but give me some more time and I will be completely in place……I think……

I’ll try and keep you all posted…….and when I finally get myself back in order, I have ALOT of things to comment on………

THIS IS YOUR FIRST WARNING

I hope this answers the question of why I’ve been M.I.M.F.A. ~ Missing In Mother Fucking Action

I thought you might want to know….

Until then~

“Let the Fire Embrace You”

This blew me away

I am posting this on both of my blogs and my new website…..so you will see it on them all……

My friend Frankie posted this in a bulletin on MySpace, and when I read it, I was blown completely away……I am so impressed, I am posting it on here…..

The Week from Hell

I hate this week…

Tuesday is my 23rd birthday, I could care less. I haven't had a good birthday in years. Something either goes wrong…or something is going wrong go into it that makes it a bullshit day.

This year…what makes this b-day so bad?

There is something I want so bad, that everytime I think about it….I cry….I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think straight…but that isn't all. This week is booked. I am going to a movie with my mother on Monday, I am going to my grandmother's house on Wednesday, I am going to hang out with my little brother on Thursday, I always can think of something to do on Fridays, Saturdays are always a bust anyway, and next Sunday is a Pay Per View called ECW One Night Stand……..

Can you see what is up?…..I have something to do, I have someone to hang out with…..everyday of this week but one…..can you guess that date?…….Tuesday June 6, 2006…….the day of my 23rd birthday…….

Alone on my birthday…..Fate, that's what you gave me last year……you fucking shouldn't have….really……

I hate Fate and it hates me……why?

Because for once in my life I want to be happy….yeah, I know….I smile….but you can fake a smile, I want to be happy on the inside…….

So hence the Week from Hell…going into this month, I was already getting back to my old self…at least optimistic….but then, I don't really know……..and now, since the Week from Hell has started, it has magnified it all…

I am not in the mood for another heartbreak…or heartache……I've had enough of those already……….how about a good thing….just this once….

That isn't asking too much…..is it?

Oh well…I know I've said it before……..Fuck Fate!!!!!!!!

I also know I've said this before, but it is even more true now….

"They say "nice guys finish last"…I do not agree….nice guys don't finish last, they don't even finish the race."

Maybe that can change……for once……that would be awesome……

Since the last one was short and sweet, then………

Ha Ha Ha……

The last one was short and sweet…this one may still end up short…depends on the words I find.

I am happy. I have had this enormous weight lifted off my shoulders. Now I don't know what to think. After all of this time spent in the shadows, I can finally say that they are going away. I can't explain it. I wished I could, but I don't want to fumble my words.

L’umore sta circa per cambiare

I know what you are all think….what in the blue hell does that mean?

"L'umore sta circa per cambiare" is Italian for "The Mood is About to Change"…….I've used it before…hell, it was even the subtitle of this very site for a while….

Now exactly what is it…I'll tell you…

Check this out ASAP please

Thanks to a link on a new-found friend's blogsite, I found this petition for that everyone should take part in.

It is called Save the Internet

I would appreciate it if each of you would sign the petition, if you haven't already.

I credit this post to a girl codenamed cricket….check out her blog as well….it is called Random Chirps….it is already on my blogroll, but here is the link anyway

Thank you cricket….

Fino alla volta prossima, i miei amici….

Until next time, my friends….

The first official post of May 2006

I am losing my faith in myself…

I have lived my life a certain way and more and more it seems that I have made a terrible mistake, or at least that is what I see…either I end up in pain or someone else does…or there is something else that it could be.  I will explain…

My Apologizes Part 2

I am sorry, but I cannot do the humerous post tonight…I don't have the energy to do it…sorry…but I will do the serious one…

I haven't been myself lately…my mind is in a haze…but I will tell you why…

The true “The Mood is About to Change”

First of all, I have updated my "The Real Me Page 2" a little more, but it deserves more work…hopefully soon…

I have a quote for you from a popular TV show…and it makes a lot of sense…I will tell you that it comes from the strangest of places…"South Park"…but this quote does make a lot of sense…here it is…

"Love isn't a decision. It's a feeling. If we could decide who we loved, it would be much simpler, but much less magical." – Trey Parker and Matt Stone, South Park, Chef Aid, 1998

But that leaves to part of the topic of this post…

I would like you to check out the changes to that page before proceding…it makes the beginning make sense…

It is past time…

I have a serious post for you, again…

I guess you can say going back to the true roots of this site…

I am going to work it completely out first, before I post it…so it may be later on tonight…

I promise…

And I will have WTF and FTW posts by Sunday…

Also a promise… 

And I have slowly been changing "The Real Me Page 2"…there will be more changes as well…

Later on…