M.I.M.F.A.

Just so everyone know, I have limited access to the internet right now. I recently moved in with my grandmother to help her out some while she is going through some tough times and everything that I use to keep everyone informed hasn’t quite gotten up to speed yet….but give me some more time and I will be completely in place……I think……

I’ll try and keep you all posted…….and when I finally get myself back in order, I have ALOT of things to comment on………

THIS IS YOUR FIRST WARNING

I hope this answers the question of why I’ve been M.I.M.F.A. ~ Missing In Mother Fucking Action

I thought you might want to know….

Until then~

“Let the Fire Embrace You”

This blew me away

I am posting this on both of my blogs and my new website…..so you will see it on them all……

My friend Frankie posted this in a bulletin on MySpace, and when I read it, I was blown completely away……I am so impressed, I am posting it on here…..

The Week from Hell

I hate this week…

Tuesday is my 23rd birthday, I could care less. I haven't had a good birthday in years. Something either goes wrong…or something is going wrong go into it that makes it a bullshit day.

This year…what makes this b-day so bad?

There is something I want so bad, that everytime I think about it….I cry….I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think straight…but that isn't all. This week is booked. I am going to a movie with my mother on Monday, I am going to my grandmother's house on Wednesday, I am going to hang out with my little brother on Thursday, I always can think of something to do on Fridays, Saturdays are always a bust anyway, and next Sunday is a Pay Per View called ECW One Night Stand……..

Can you see what is up?…..I have something to do, I have someone to hang out with…..everyday of this week but one…..can you guess that date?…….Tuesday June 6, 2006…….the day of my 23rd birthday…….

Alone on my birthday…..Fate, that's what you gave me last year……you fucking shouldn't have….really……

I hate Fate and it hates me……why?

Because for once in my life I want to be happy….yeah, I know….I smile….but you can fake a smile, I want to be happy on the inside…….

So hence the Week from Hell…going into this month, I was already getting back to my old self…at least optimistic….but then, I don't really know……..and now, since the Week from Hell has started, it has magnified it all…

I am not in the mood for another heartbreak…or heartache……I've had enough of those already……….how about a good thing….just this once….

That isn't asking too much…..is it?

Oh well…I know I've said it before……..Fuck Fate!!!!!!!!

I also know I've said this before, but it is even more true now….

"They say "nice guys finish last"…I do not agree….nice guys don't finish last, they don't even finish the race."

Maybe that can change……for once……that would be awesome……

Welcome to hell….FTW #5

Yes……that's right……..

Welcome to another edition of FTW

I call this "Welcome to Hell"

"Fuck the World" #5

So we shall begin it with this…….

I say "Fuck Me"

NO I do not mean it in that sense, but hey, the offer is on the table….

No I mean in the sense that I absolutely hate myself now. 100%. I finally thought I could finish one of those races, but something inside has just burst into flames….so I guess you can call it a blow out.

I thought I had finally figured myself out, what I wanted….who I wanted….where I wanted to go…….but I was wrong….DEAD WRONG……..I have hit that proverbial brick wall and the proverbial freight train has me cornered.

I cannot believe that I am feeling this way.

I am extremely happy right now…happier than I have ever been, but I am also very confused.

I have a new one for you all….."You never truly know where your heart lies, until you feel like it is about to explode."

I am at that point, my heart, my mind, my body, my soul are all on fire….I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think straight, I can't figure out my own being….I am lost, but I am happy……

"Fuck me really really hard"……also not it that context……

That wraps up this edition of FTW. I want to know what you all think, leave me a comment, shoot from wherever you are, whatever you feel like…don't be easy on me. Or whatever you want to say to me. I want to know that some read it….so leave me a comment…..

SO……until next time……remember……..when you are so pissed off at someone you could rip there head off……or maybe even at yourself….LOL….just shake your fist at the sky and scream……………….."Fuck the World"….(or give up on everything)

"The Master needs to go clear his mind….even if it mean removing it….."

Since the last one was short and sweet, then………

Ha Ha Ha……

The last one was short and sweet…this one may still end up short…depends on the words I find.

I am happy. I have had this enormous weight lifted off my shoulders. Now I don't know what to think. After all of this time spent in the shadows, I can finally say that they are going away. I can't explain it. I wished I could, but I don't want to fumble my words.

How about short and sweet

I will have a longer version of this tomorrow some time…but I have to tell you all something important……..very important…

The Mood Has Changed…….for the better…I can't believe that I am saying this, but I think I am slowly, finally getting happy again…for the first time in so many years…..

OH HELL YEAH

Until tomorrow…

And I promise that I will expand on this tomorrow…

L’umore sta circa per cambiare

I know what you are all think….what in the blue hell does that mean?

"L'umore sta circa per cambiare" is Italian for "The Mood is About to Change"…….I've used it before…hell, it was even the subtitle of this very site for a while….

Now exactly what is it…I'll tell you…

A mission statement in the works part 1

I have decided that it is time…I'm going to tell her everything….but I am going to do it my way. What way is that? You will all see very very soon. I know what you all are thinking, what is he up to? Simple, but you will understand soon…..trust me, you will.

Look for future installments of A mission statement in the works

Caption Time #2

What should I do?

If you read my last one, you know what I am talking about.  I really don't know what I should do. I have effectively hit a BIG THICK CLEAR CEMENT WALL…..and it hurts like all hell……

Maybe some humor will get me back on the right track…….so…………………..

Here is some humor for all of us….enjoy……..

And this will be "Caption Time #2"………..for me anyway

Well…how much do you want to know…

We will call this one…."The Post That Never Was"