Welcome to hell….FTW #5

Yes……that's right……..

Welcome to another edition of FTW

I call this "Welcome to Hell"

"Fuck the World" #5

So we shall begin it with this…….

I say "Fuck Me"

NO I do not mean it in that sense, but hey, the offer is on the table….;)

No I mean in the sense that I absolutely hate myself now. 100%. I finally thought I could finish one of those races, but something inside has just burst into flames….so I guess you can call it a blow out.

I thought I had finally figured myself out, what I wanted….who I wanted….where I wanted to go…….but I was wrong….DEAD WRONG……..I have hit that proverbial brick wall and the proverbial freight train has me cornered.

I cannot believe that I am feeling this way.

I am extremely happy right now…happier than I have ever been, but I am also very confused.

I have a new one for you all….."You never truly know where your heart lies, until you feel like it is about to explode."

I am at that point, my heart, my mind, my body, my soul are all on fire….I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think straight, I can't figure out my own being….I am lost, but I am happy……

"Fuck me really really hard"……also not it that context……

That wraps up this edition of FTW. I want to know what you all think, leave me a comment, shoot from wherever you are, whatever you feel like…don't be easy on me. Or whatever you want to say to me. I want to know that some read it….so leave me a comment…..

SO……until next time……remember……..when you are so pissed off at someone you could rip there head off……or maybe even at yourself….LOL….just shake your fist at the sky and scream……………….."Fuck the World"….(or give up on everything)

"The Master needs to go clear his mind….even if it mean removing it….."

Well……where do I go from here?…FTW #4

Yes you read it correctly…..FTW #4…..I am so happy to have a topic for it again…but this serves 2 purposes, so bear with me…you will all understand what I mean…….so shall we begin…and this one will be a LONG one again….

"Fuck the World" #4

This is the lost post…LOOK it’s…FTW #3

There has been a fire that has been ignited by a certain blog post that I had read…something that I just can't shake…so I thought I'd elborate on it some more…and it has to do with something in my "The Real Me" page…

This fire has been ignited by one Emma Donovan, the same person that inspired the UFC post…she is a very good writer and her blog-post on the particular fire-lighting topic was excellent…if you want to check out the article, go to her blog…which has been added to my blogroll…but here is the link anyway – http://emmadonovan.wordpress.com – warning: very touchy subject, you will see why the fire grows so bright…

So here is the very important post I promised to all of you very avid readers(and I love all of you)…so say hello to:

"Fuck the World" #3

I say "Fuck all Sadists".  Every single one of them.  Those of you who know about my "The Real Me" page, know that my pet peeve is Sadists.  Now more than ever.  What kind of sick twisted individuals are out there?!!!?  You have your "Players".  You have your murderers.  You have your rapists.  You have your petty thieves.  You have your corrupt politicans(almost all of them are).  In the case of President Boy George, you have your stupid politicans.  You have your racists.  You have your righteous religous freaks(not knocking any religion, but you can take it TOO far).  You have your corrupt religous heads(like a pastor or reverand…personal experience…later date).  You have your fakes and phonies.  And now we have one more that eluded me…child pornographers.  First of all, I have to say that I am not for or against pornography, I really don't care either way.  It is a business just like any other.  So don't think that this is going to be some religous qualm about porn.  I do not have a beef with the business itself, they all have paying jobs doing what they like to do.  But even though this will not have a religous tone to it, there is an issue about morality.

The adult industry has been around for quite some time, with the guidelines that the viewers and participants were adults, meaning 18+(21+ for viewers in some states), and it was to stay that way.  Some people apparently didn't listen to the whole "participants" part.  People are subjecting these younger children to these lewd and heinous acts.  Children ranging from oldest being, of course, 17 to the youngest being…I don't really know…doesn't really matter…it will still be sick and disgusting.  The term for this: pedophilia.  And there are people that enjoy looking at and watching this kind of stuff.  They are refered to as pedophiles.  I refer to them as sick, demented, twisted pieces of shit.  And that isn't all I could've said but it is hard to type with one hand while the other is balled up so tight that you draw blood within the creases(I will have to get that taped up now, shit).  I guess I don't know my own strength…moving on with the topic.

We've all heard about it in the news.  We all have heard the extent of it.  And we all know what state and federal legislators are doing about it…but is it enough?!!!?  The topic raised in Emma's blog post raises a good question about the extent of what should be consider child pornography, and I am not going to repeat any of it.  One, it doesn't need to be repeated and two, Emma has done a great job with her blog-post, that it would a crime to repeat her excellent work(she has such a way with words).  But both her post and this one here, I have one question for you all: what should be considered child pornography?  Please, make sure you have read both this post and Emma's before you make any judgements or give me any answers.  But I don't really want answers…but I welcome them…what I really want is your feelings about the subject…about child porn or just sadists in general…remember: this is your site as well…

I will say this…I hate ALL sadists…if I had the time, money, and resources I would make each and everyone of them pay with some kind of much needed torture…for example: strapping a religous freak down to a chair and read to them passages from the Necronomicon; taking a rapist and superglueing his dick to the inside of his thigh and making him walk, or taking a jackhammer to his rectal cavity; taking a pedophile and burning his eyes out with the tip of a soldering iron…sorry, I can be very demented when it comes to torturing those sadists, I apologize now while I still can.  MWah Ha hAhA HaAH HA haaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!  I think I have vent ed enough about this subject for now, don't you?

That wraps up this segment of FTW.  Look for WTF #3 some time in the next 24 hours.  I hope. If I can get my hand to stop bleeding so I can have both of my hands to type(and remember what I was going to post for it…been having that absent-minded problem again).

So until next time…remember…when you feel pissed off and want to rip someone's head off of their shoulders, just scream "FUCK THE WORLD"

The Master is bleeding.  where did I put that fucking gauze and medical tape.  OH YEAH.  Under my copy of the Necronomicon…

Note: Please give Miss Emma Donovan the well due regards on her post, and don't forget to comment…

I have been M.I.A….but I have returned…

Sorry to my avid readers about not poting anything since last Sunday night…I had something very important to do – I spent the last two days with my daughter…and she and I had a blast…like normal…but alas, all good things must come to an end…that is the explaination of my whereabouts…glad no one decided to send a search party…

But I am here and that's what counts…Here is the post for the day…

This is a special crossover edition of WTF & FTW.  Happy to bring this momentous occation to all of you…

The topic at hand…honor.  I live my life by it…I have to…it is who I am.  I believe that you cannot have respect without it.  I believe that you cannot have love without it.  But to find someone that has it is a rarity. I will explain and it will explain the plea for my sanity the other day…

I have only been out of a relationship since the beginning of the year…with the snarling hose-beast…and because of fate, I have found someone who has helped me connect with what I have lost inside(and I EnJoY her presence)…but I think it is safe to say that I lost a lot inside from what my last relationship did to me.  I want to reclaim what I have lost, I want to become what I used to be…completely.  You all have seen what is in my head, you all have an idea of what I am talking about…but I am not whole yet…so I sat down and decided on what I needed to do – write down what I thought I needed to complete…um…me.  I had a medium sized list nothing really big…I have completed almost all of them.  There were two things that I needed to do…first change my view of the world.  During the years with the snarling hose-beast, I ended up becoming very bitter toward the world, as a whole…I hated almost everyone…because I missed who I used to be…since getting away from her, that has changed DRASTICALLY…but I am still missing a few things…so I decided to release held-up feelings…

First of all on that…I do appreciate what I have and I love the EnJoYment I get out of my new found love interest, so don't get me wrong on this.  I have learned that sometimes to move on, you must be true to yourself…and that is what I did.  There is a friend that I have known for quite some time that I have always had that secret crush on…but everytime she confronted me about it, I always lied and said no I didn't…well, I decided to tell her the truth…I never said anything else, just what I had been feeling…I wanted her to know the truth…I needed to be true to myself…after all of the time of holding it in, I needed to release it…and I did it in the most honorable fashion I could.  THE END RESULT: she showed her true color by ripping me, I never asked her if she was available or asked her out(I wouldn't anymore anyway…I EnJoY my company)…I was just being honesty…trying to be honorable…I didn't do anythng wrong, did I?!?!?

I live my life for three things – honor, respect, and love.  I know, I know.  Why is love last?  You can't have love without the other 2.  But I have to ask myself(and all of you) – Why do I still live for honor?  All of you readers have been very honorable to me and I thank each and everyone of you, but you all are a rare breed.  Honor should be something that is embraced not avoided.  After this recent experience with my now former friend, I have a new found respect for the world around me(and with some help from my recent EnJoYment…yes, this is a running occurance)…a respect for that nothing is always as it seems…I knew it before now…but now I respect it even more…

Posted under WTF… because I was hoping to confuse some of you…if not…oh well…

Posted under FTW… because of the moral of this story…"Fuck the Dishonorable People"…get it and understand it or kiss my ass…I think it is fair…

I would like to thank Becky for being the first to respond to me about the other day.  I would like to thank Peaches for being there to help me when I asked.  I would like to thank my Gypsy for being my reason for making myself want to keep on going with my code of honor………..and I would like to thank the Academy for nominating me to be….uh…..well….The Master…

EnJoy my slaves…Mwah ha ha ha ha haaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

"All souls will bow to their Master…I'm waiting…"

This is a strange post…

I have posted this under WTF… but it will not count toward the segments list…okay….okay…

As all of you know that have been paying attention to the soap opera called my life…I had a funny idea…I am going to post a personal add…I can't wait to see what you all think about this…I don't why I'm doing it but be warned…I frighten people…all of the time…

SWM. 22 Years Old. Columbus, IN. I am a not-so-average guy with a not-so-normal way of mind.  I am used to heartbreak, so please, if you intend on doing so, at least be naughty about it. I am looking for a woman who wants to be treated with honor and respect, like she is my princess, but not to the point that she doesn't forget who I am. I am looking for a woman that wants a man that will be honest with her at every turn. I live for love and I am looking for a woman that does too. I am looking for a woman who doesn't mind to be loved and be willing to love me back, sounds strange but it seems so hard to find. If you are someone like this or know someone that would like someone like me, please let me know. I'm getting tired of trying.

There is a very popular movie called "Batman Begins" starring Christian Bale, Katie Holmes, & Liam Neeson.  There is a line in that movie that was said by both Bruce Wayne(Bale) and Rachel Dawes(Holmes).  That line is "It's not who we are on the inside, it's what we do that defines us."  I used to believe that, but I don't know anymore.  I try to do right all of the time, and I'm pretty successful at it.  The thing is that I always end up not getting what I want.  I hate it.  What do I need to do to finally get what I want for a change?  All I want is this…I put in a post a few days ago that I thought that "Nice guys finish last." wasn't true, that they don't even finish the race…and then a recent post I put that I think I have finally finished a race…the only thing is it isn't the race I want to finish.  Now don't get me wrong…I am very blessed to have this wonderful friend(and now I have gained another new friend in Peaches…thank you) but I want to be loved for once.  I know it sounds bad, but I do.  That is what I really want.  I turn 23 this year and I would really like a girlfriend for my birthday…I keep asking Santa for one but he doesn't listen to me anymore, all he likes to give me is grief(must of been because of the year I ate all of his cookies, couldn't help it they were peanut-butter ones…back on track here).  I hate the fact that I have to post this, but having this here has been a great way to vent all of this frustration.  Tell me what you all think so far, especially this post.

Now for one more note…as I said, I am glad to have Aly as a friend, I don't have too many left because of my ex, so each one I have is VERY important to me.  Aly is a blessing to have as a friend, and lately I don't where I would be without her(and don't worry, I haven't forgotten all of the encouragement from you all…you count toward those friends as well).  But I would be lying if I said that I didn't wish that things could be different, that I still would love to be her object of affection(I have know idea where all of these thoughts and words are coming from…so bear with me…okay), but I know that unfortunately fate can't be beaten.  I am glad she is my friend, and I hope that we can be friends for a very long time.  And it goes without saying(but I'm going to do it anyway), that if she was to EVER change her mind about letting me in, I would be on it quicker than a fucking heartbeat(sorry, about the language, trying to keep it only on WTF & FTW…but oh well…truth be told).  So have I given up on trying to be her love interest…not really…I'm just not going to do anything about it anymore…come what may…if it is going to happen, it will, and I am leaving the future in that aspect to her…and I may or may not tell her that…but I will let destiny take its course…if she changes her mind…great…if not…still have an awesome friend…they say you can't have it all…well let the future decide that…

You all probably all think that I am fool for keeping this in my mind…this hope…but when you know that you would rather die than forget about it…then you know that you are truly…alive…

So is the life of "The Soulless One"

-Master Solace

FTW…#2

This is only the second edition of FTW…and we are already having a special edition…this is a special cross-over edition with Life Stuff…and here it goes…

Fuck the World #2

I say “Fuck Fate”.  I hate it.  I hate what it stands for.  I now know that I can’t do a damn thing about it.  I thought finally I could beat it…and I thought I had come close…but I was wrong…and who do I have to blame for it………..myself…my life is shit and I know it.  All I have right now is you readers.  Not that having all of you is a bad thing, I appreciate all of your encouragement lately, but it seems that fate has done it to me again…I feel like I hit a big brick wall…a big THICK brick wall…but oh well…you know how I always say…………………..

So is the life of “The Soulless One”

-Master Solace

Debut on the blog scene…

Hello, I am Master Solace, and I would like to introduce you all to the magical new find on the blog scene…”FTW…”

Fuck the World #1

I say this “Fuck the war”.  We did our part to help them…we got Saddam…we stayed to help them establish a democracy…now they are looking toward civil war…we DO NOT need to be over there for that…it’s just another “President Boy George Special”…I guess it is true…describe the President in one word…ok…”Bushit”…definitely.

This is only the first of but many editions of “FTW…” and don’t miss the debut of “WTF…”, hopefully soon my avid readers.

Until next time, the Master is always here.

Mwah ha ha ha haaaaa!