The Week from Hell

I hate this week…

Tuesday is my 23rd birthday, I could care less. I haven't had a good birthday in years. Something either goes wrong…or something is going wrong go into it that makes it a bullshit day.

This year…what makes this b-day so bad?

There is something I want so bad, that everytime I think about it….I cry….I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think straight…but that isn't all. This week is booked. I am going to a movie with my mother on Monday, I am going to my grandmother's house on Wednesday, I am going to hang out with my little brother on Thursday, I always can think of something to do on Fridays, Saturdays are always a bust anyway, and next Sunday is a Pay Per View called ECW One Night Stand……..

Can you see what is up?…..I have something to do, I have someone to hang out with…..everyday of this week but one…..can you guess that date?…….Tuesday June 6, 2006…….the day of my 23rd birthday…….

Alone on my birthday…..Fate, that's what you gave me last year……you fucking shouldn't have….really……

I hate Fate and it hates me……why?

Because for once in my life I want to be happy….yeah, I know….I smile….but you can fake a smile, I want to be happy on the inside…….

So hence the Week from Hell…going into this month, I was already getting back to my old self…at least optimistic….but then, I don't really know……..and now, since the Week from Hell has started, it has magnified it all…

I am not in the mood for another heartbreak…or heartache……I've had enough of those already……….how about a good thing….just this once….

That isn't asking too much…..is it?

Oh well…I know I've said it before……..Fuck Fate!!!!!!!!

I also know I've said this before, but it is even more true now….

"They say "nice guys finish last"…I do not agree….nice guys don't finish last, they don't even finish the race."

Maybe that can change……for once……that would be awesome……