My Apologizes Part 2

I am sorry, but I cannot do the humerous post tonight…I don't have the energy to do it…sorry…but I will do the serious one…

I haven't been myself lately…my mind is in a haze…but I will tell you why…

All throughout my life I've been sick…everyday…it doesn't go away…I have been diagnosed with IBS(irritable bowel syndrome) since my freshman year, I have something called Meckle's Disease(at least that is what I think it is called, don't remember exactly…nothing bad, it just cause sharp pain sometimes…crippling pain…lol), I have an ulcer the size of a quarter(probably bigger now) and I have been through two bouts with colon cancer…

Well…you might make that three bouts…I am sick again…I have the cancer again…just as bad as the times before…I have almost no energy, but I keep going…but it too will pass…

It doesn't change anything about me…I'm still the same guy…but I still have been having the pains…but I keep going…it too will pass…right?

But that leads to why I have been in a haze as of late…as I posted a couple of posts back, there is a girl I like…a lot…her name is Liana…and I don't have the heart to tell her…

Why?…simple…1) I like her, and I don't really want her to know about the cancer…I don't want it to change anything…what there is anyway…see, I've already fumbled the ball a little…but I guess you could say that I am afraid, scared of what she might say or think…my fear is getting the best of me again…she is different and I can see that(you all know about my ability to read people)and really do like her…and I am afraid…of what…I can't say that…I'm just scared.  2) She has had a past experience with the whole cancer thing.  She didn't have it, but someone very important to her went through it…and that is part of the reason I am scared…but definitely not all of it…

What is the purpose of this post?  Two reasons…

The first: I am going to send Liana a direct link to this post…I want her to know the truth.  I like her, and I owe it to myself to be honest to her…so it is time that she knows…I don't know what the result is going to be, but I hope it is good…I will inform you about it…as soon as I know…and I should before tomorrow's post…wish me luck…I think I need it, but I could be wrong…

The other reason is my inspiration for this…someone that has reminded me of my own creedo…"Always Be True to Yourself, No Matter What".  He is one of my friends…his name is Mark.  The only thing I will tell you about him is that he is different…he has something about him that is unique(as does everybody)…but his something is special, becuase a lot of people know who he is since he is famous…and that is all I'm going to say about that because I don't want to say anymore…but through all the fame, he just wants to be normal, lead a normal life, he wants to be himself…through it all, he is true to himself…and I think I respect him more than a lot of people, because through talking with him the times that I have, he has proven to me that he is a living example of what I have been saying for years…you have to be true to yourself, no matter what.  He is also living proof that things are always what they seem…it is because of Mark that I have decided that it is time to let it out completely, and that I NEED to let Liana know…

So it goes without saying, thank you Mark…you are the best…let's just hope that all of this hasn't been done in vain…

Well, this has come to a close.  I hope you all understand a little more…and I hope to be back up to speed to do a funny post tomorrow…or maybe even a WTF or FTW post…or all three…

But that is tomorrow…

So is the life of "The Soulless One"…

Fino alla volta prossima…('Until next time' for the new readers)

Later on…

"It's not who you are on the inside, it's what you do that defines you." – "Batman Begins" by both Katie Holmes & Christian Bale at different times in the movies……

Definitely true…