Sorry to my avid readers about not poting anything since last Sunday night…I had something very important to do – I spent the last two days with my daughter…and she and I had a blast…like normal…but alas, all good things must come to an end…that is the explaination of my whereabouts…glad no one decided to send a search party…
But I am here and that's what counts…Here is the post for the day…
This is a special crossover edition of WTF & FTW. Happy to bring this momentous occation to all of you…
The topic at hand…honor. I live my life by it…I have to…it is who I am. I believe that you cannot have respect without it. I believe that you cannot have love without it. But to find someone that has it is a rarity. I will explain and it will explain the plea for my sanity the other day…
I have only been out of a relationship since the beginning of the year…with the snarling hose-beast…and because of fate, I have found someone who has helped me connect with what I have lost inside(and I EnJoY her presence)…but I think it is safe to say that I lost a lot inside from what my last relationship did to me. I want to reclaim what I have lost, I want to become what I used to be…completely. You all have seen what is in my head, you all have an idea of what I am talking about…but I am not whole yet…so I sat down and decided on what I needed to do – write down what I thought I needed to complete…um…me. I had a medium sized list nothing really big…I have completed almost all of them. There were two things that I needed to do…first change my view of the world. During the years with the snarling hose-beast, I ended up becoming very bitter toward the world, as a whole…I hated almost everyone…because I missed who I used to be…since getting away from her, that has changed DRASTICALLY…but I am still missing a few things…so I decided to release held-up feelings…
First of all on that…I do appreciate what I have and I love the EnJoYment I get out of my new found love interest, so don't get me wrong on this. I have learned that sometimes to move on, you must be true to yourself…and that is what I did. There is a friend that I have known for quite some time that I have always had that secret crush on…but everytime she confronted me about it, I always lied and said no I didn't…well, I decided to tell her the truth…I never said anything else, just what I had been feeling…I wanted her to know the truth…I needed to be true to myself…after all of the time of holding it in, I needed to release it…and I did it in the most honorable fashion I could. THE END RESULT: she showed her true color by ripping me, I never asked her if she was available or asked her out(I wouldn't anymore anyway…I EnJoY my company)…I was just being honesty…trying to be honorable…I didn't do anythng wrong, did I?!?!?
I live my life for three things – honor, respect, and love. I know, I know. Why is love last? You can't have love without the other 2. But I have to ask myself(and all of you) – Why do I still live for honor? All of you readers have been very honorable to me and I thank each and everyone of you, but you all are a rare breed. Honor should be something that is embraced not avoided. After this recent experience with my now former friend, I have a new found respect for the world around me(and with some help from my recent EnJoYment…yes, this is a running occurance)…a respect for that nothing is always as it seems…I knew it before now…but now I respect it even more…
Posted under WTF… because I was hoping to confuse some of you…if not…oh well…
Posted under FTW… because of the moral of this story…"Fuck the Dishonorable People"…get it and understand it or kiss my ass…I think it is fair…
I would like to thank Becky for being the first to respond to me about the other day. I would like to thank Peaches for being there to help me when I asked. I would like to thank my Gypsy for being my reason for making myself want to keep on going with my code of honor………..and I would like to thank the Academy for nominating me to be….uh…..well….The Master…
EnJoy my slaves…Mwah ha ha ha ha haaaaa!!!!!!!!!!
"All souls will bow to their Master…I'm waiting…"
Wednesday, April 5, 2006 at 7:51 am
Hello my Master………Glad to see you are back and hope you had a wonderful time with your daughter. Keep on hanging in there. And believe me, one quality that people lack in this society is honor. I admire you for that. I hope you’re getting your head back on straight.
Love, Peaches
Wednesday, April 5, 2006 at 9:02 am
Glad to have you back! have missed YOU, work has been crazy, but I’ll e-ya later. I think You are on the right track with Your self-discovery!
gypsy
Wednesday, April 5, 2006 at 10:12 am
Glad I could be of some small help……you are young….life lessons are sometimes painfull…but we all tend to survive somehow….spring is here, life seems to get better with warmer weather.hang in …….I believe your life will turn around:)
P.S. sorry for the late post, had my daughter in the E.R. until 1:00am, she’ll be ok, I’m just a slug right now:)
Take Care!
Wednesday, April 5, 2006 at 1:34 pm
Don't worry about me…I am stronger now than I have ever been…to the future and I can't wait for what is in store…
Becky – don't worry about the late post…our children are most important…and please PLEASE remember this…you don't ever have to be sorry to me…I understand a lot more than most people…and as for the warmer weather…I love the sun and spring like almost everyone else…but I love my snow a lot more(I'm strange I know)
Peaches – My head is on straight, and thanks to my recent quest, it is bolted down…I will talk to you later about it…
My Gypsy – I think my self-discovery has finally reached an end. I have achieved what I've been missing, and it is all thanks to all of the people that post on here, but you the most, in ways that I can even begin to describe…
Wednesday, April 5, 2006 at 5:26 pm
**Loud clapping**.Bravo!